越底越不可信

from wehearit.com 艱難的時刻好像太多、已經過去的事情總被懷念，懷念的滋味特別美好但空虛無意義，就是因為確實認知到那些是也回不來的時刻所以才懷念，像是蛋白霜，甜美、值得讓人回味，真正細細辨認卻什麼都沒有，什麼也不剩下。 我似乎非常久沒有被挑起這樣強說愁的情感了，所以一切使力擠出的文字總還是索然無味，這一句接不著下一句，難道要體認到長大卻非得要伴隨這樣的副作用不可嗎？我說的是所有想望只朝向所有物質化的那一端，或最終回歸獲得物質的目標。 我感到疲累，卻不能直接的向任何人抱怨，遇到的這些，我們說經歷，使人說話上似乎再也找不回直爽乾脆，我總得先留條路，修個角，然後才緩慢的吐出一句話，常常最後幾個字還留白，以防說得太明又踢了誰一腳，或又給人不知足的感覺。 這世界，累啊。 我幾乎像是一隻困在泥淖裡的豬。 但是還有救的是，或者可以說是我唯一所剩的能力了，就是不管多沮喪多想放棄，在生出我要放棄向上成為真正低階層活得像坨屎的人生這個念頭的下一秒，老子就會馬上振作起來。 我向自己發誓，我永不放棄。

我最有印象的出現場合是第二集左右張宰烈砸車段。 也是最建議搭配觀賞片段，詼諧有勁，很有一種黑色幽默的帥感，當然趙寅成的小混混魅力根本出神入化。 這首歌在整部戲中應該蠻常出現的，但我最喜歡也覺得最有意思的是在16集還15集，總之是結尾部分，張宰烈的病開始好轉，寫作能力、電台都慢慢回復時，我覺得放在這邊是很俏皮的暗示大家：「hey everybody, 我就算得了精神分裂症，恢復也不是什麼難事好嗎？我是誰？我是張宰烈耶，ok大家快來看我有多帥~」恩，大約是這樣的OS感覺。 好總之我非常愛這部劇，是我一生心中自行舉辦的奧斯卡(或艾美獎?金鐘獎?SBS放送大賞?)榜單，目前暫居第一名，但之後再來慢慢說，因為我對它的愛太多。 一堆廢話以後，以下是不負責自行英翻中：(完全歡迎指正) Oceans apart and it’s heavy on my heart. 海隔開了你我，我的心沉沉的。 Roll and row but my rolling game too slow. 一切流轉，但我這滾動不息的遊戲如此緩慢。 I’m happy you know. 你知道我是快樂的。 I’m spending my time watching the ship and the globe. 我把時間花費在欣賞這些船與這個地球 Why beauty’s in the simple things. 為什麼美總存在於如此簡單的事物上 Your sweetness and your elegance. 你的甜蜜與你的高雅 I’m happy you know. 你知道我是快樂的 Oceans apart and I’m sailing on my dreams. 海隔開你我，而我正在我的夢裡航行 Roll and row but rolling game too wild. 一切流轉，但我這滾動不息的遊戲如此狂野 I’m lost in your smile. 我迷失在你的微笑中了

It's so wonderful that I can't find out any adjective to describe it, how amazing i feel, yeah music is the most incredible magic. Drake cover is too robotic to me, I mean for my emotion now.

photos from www.keepcalmandposters.com Even just thinking about it, I feel sick. Before that I still thought that I still have the chance to retrieve all the disaster. I'm always telling myself I still own something I can rely on. But guess what? I even don't know what's going on, and i'm already sold. What a surprise, huh? How can I be such a stupid girl? I think I really need to entering the new world and get rid of all this shit. All I need to do is to ask myself 2 things before making any decisions : 1st, Do you remember what you wanna do and wanna be? 2nd, Is this shit will affect that? 3rd, Why aren't you just calm down and watch they play that stupid game?

Timeless, and everything seems like entering the rush hour. I'm not sure if I still have the ability to complete " mission impossible'', but I'm sure I still have the passion and I won't give up until the last second. But I am nervous though. Can I ? I always believe I could be the one, but after more and more laughing I'm getting suspecting myself. it's stupid, I knew, I know, but I can't deny that I'm afraid in the deep. Fear is inside my heart, I always choose to skip it, but it really exist. Maybe nobody is on my side, maybe all my friendship is fake in my 24 years life, maybe I'm fail 'til now, but it won't stop me, you know, I won't give up even if the world is destroyed. NOTHING CAN BEAT ME. Remember you are who you are, find the way and keep calm.

一言以蔽之。 但，其實 潛在而更核心的原因是前閒置期太長，又是個輪迴， 偏偏又遇上莫名的(?)工作旺季，推了好幾次蠻怕得罪大人，但沒別的辦法， 我擠不出餘裕了完完全全的，請給我更多的時間吧!或者更多的幸運。 穩住抵達啊，你做得到的，加油。 ____________________________________________________________________ picture is from website

Counting Stars - OneRepublic Yeah, i know, this song is already released for a period of time. But i have to quote this "Everything that kills me makes me feel more alive." So don't be afraid, don't be upset. These scars are all your proof that you have conquered it. Never give up and always believes yourself even if nobody's supporting you. I know you will survive and reach the goal, you will, 'cause you are the one, just yet. The world is waiting for you, just run.